The Battle

We all have some sort of inner turmoil.  On the physical plane, we know that there is no such thing as normal or perfect.  This is about my experience of inner turmoil.  This is tough, but it's something I have to do.  *Sigh* Here we go...

For the past few years, I have been battling depression and anxiety.  Whether it is stemmed from something that happened in my life or a chemical imbalance I was born with, I don't know.  All I do know is that I have to work with it.

This depression causes me to be resistant to all good things in my life.  This is why it is very important to me that I focus on my spirituality and the good people and things in my life.  The good news is that I don't always feel this way.  It comes in spurts.  When it hits, it hits hard, but it doesn't last.  I have found bliss.  I don't always feel it 24/7, but it's there and I feel it most of the time.

I am also writing this to tell you that it's okay to feel frustrated, sad, depressed, anxious, to grieve, or to feel nothing.  If you're on the spiritual path, yet you don't feel spiritual or haven't found bliss, it's okay.  We are meant to feel the good, the bad, the ugly and the BEAUTY.  In order for the seed to grow, be in the light, and become beautiful, it had to be covered in dirt and kept in darkness.

This is how I look at life.  We have to experience it all in order to grow and become beautiful.  Thank you all for making this life worthwhile.

Iyanla Vanzant says, "the best students get the hardest tests".  We are all of God's best students.

Journey Om, my friends!